Hah, I’m terrible at this one a day stuff sometimes! I get so tired after work, and then I have raids, and then I’m like ‘let me relax a bit’ and next thing I know I’m in bed.
For those not in the know, Raiding is killing internet dragons with my crew Premature Heroism in World of Warcraft. Three nights a week (Mon, Wed, Thurs) from 6pm to 8pm we sit down and chat and focus on killing pixels for more pixels of loot and to make our characters look awesome. I’ll post some pics of my Shaman sometime. I love her.
But, I digress.
Today I’m going to write about World of Warcraft. Fair warning, for those who want to tune out… and for those who want to tune in, hah. I’m also going to talk a bit more about Ohana. I have no doubt that you’ll see the occasional thing about PH, WoW, etc. It’s a pretty big part of my life. 🙂 Also… posting at 2 minutes to midnight. Woo! Just in time 🙂
For those who don’t know, I’ve been playing World of Warcraft since the closed beta in August 2004. That’s a long time to be committed to anything, especially a video game. Hell, I’ve been playing WoW longer than I’ve been married!
Everything we do has stages. Our life, our thoughts, our emotions – they all have individual stages to them. Today, we’ve finished another ‘stage’ and the crushing finality of it is haunting and painful all at once.
For those keeping count it’s been five weeks since the world as we knew it ended and we had to start asking things like Why? and What do we do now? And How could this happen? And I know there’s a lot of us who have run the gamut of emotions in this whole time.
Last night between 2:30 and 3:30am, I wrote a letter to Sarah as it’s been four weeks. I know a lot of what I’ve written lately has been about what’s happened, and for some folks who may be reading this, it’s like picking at a scab. For me, it’s therapy, and helps me deal with my emotions and how I feel about this – so I apologize if I’m ripping your scabs open on a fairly frequent basis. (How gross is that, picking at scabs… hah!)
I’m not overly demonstrative. When I love though, I love fully and deeply… still waters run deep and all that. I’m pretty true to my Scorpio heritage in that aspect. And the emotional trauma that my whole family has been dealing with in the past month… well, this is my way of dealing with it. I hope you understand. Much love to everyone. ❤
Taking a break from some fiction tonight t talk about what happened today… and to post a little about inner strength. Working nights is both a blessing and a curse. It gives my mind the chance to wander and be free and create create create! But it’s also quiet, and sometimes I don’t do too well with quiet, especially in light of the more recent events in my life.
The one notable exception is on Sunday nights when the security guards turn on one of the local radio stations and then go around to every room in the building to make sure that the speakers can be heard from. That always makes me giggle a bit.
Well, as I thought, I did end up skipping a day due to life, the universe and everything, hah. I’m pretty much recounting everything yesterday, as I saw it… so I understand if folks don’t want to read this. (Heads up, I’m trying to keep as few names out of this as possible out of respect for the fact that I haven’t asked anyone to post their names.)
Today was my first day back at work for the new year. It’s good to be back at work but it was tougher than I imagined. I worked between Christmas and New Years and I knew I was having concentration problems then, but today was off the charts. I’m glad I’m on the afternoon shift as that means I can be on the phones a bit more – that helps when I can’t concentrate.
Mind you I’m shit for helping people as I can’t focus on what they’re asking me, and I’m not really training as such but helping the guy who is on his second rotation through the After Hours roster, and I feel bad for him because I’m like ‘lolwut’ all the time.