Tonight was like many other fortnightly nights. We have Matt’s kids and we go to family dinner. It’s been the same for a long long time. The main change tonight was that family dinner was at Adam and Leigh’s instead of at Greg and Juliann’s, and it was Aidan’s 20th Birthday.
As we sat around the big table at Adam and Leigh’s house tonight, listening to music (including Halsey’s cover of “Love Yourself” by Justin Beiber and “Fresh Eyes” – both songs that played at Sarah’s funeral) it felt… like healing.
Like we can finally begin this process we’ve all been waiting on for so long (over two and a half years!) and that while Sarah’s gone, she’s definitely not forgotten – and dare I say it, but I felt her spirit there tonight. In the laughter, in the music, in the jokes…
I guess it’s one thing to wait and wait and wait, and know that you can start that ‘moving forward’ process once you’ve gotten your closure. And there are so many different types of closure. The funeral was a big one, and this trial being over with is another one. The sentencing will no doubt be a third. But in our case, the trial being done, Paul being found guilty… it’s such a relief. And it’s taken days to start processing that we don’t have this hanging over our heads anymore, and that we can start to move forward. And for me, tonight felt like healing. I said as we were leaving to Greg “We needed this.” and he agreed. And we did. We needed something to kick start our healing process and that’s exactly what we did tonight, I think. There will be some sore heads in the morning I suspect, but I think the burden that we all carried in our hearts will be just a little bit lighter. It will -never- go away. But now, we can bear it just a little bit better, feel a bit stronger, and breathe just that little bit easier.
So I know I haven’t posted in a long while and for that I don’t apologize – life happens. But today I felt the keen need to put some words to paper so to speak ☺️. I’m currently sitting outside on the 18th floor of the balcony of our a hotel room listening to “my boys” talk about video gaming and all kinds of things.
Today was the first day of Pax Australia 2017 and the sheer emotion that I felt today as I entered the MCEC just absolutely floored me. They say that your vibe attracts your tribe and today more than ever I believe in that. Walking up the steps to enter there is a giant sign that hangs out every year and it flicks between sayings – “Its bigger on the inside” etc. but every year there is one that resonates so hard with me – “Welcome Home”.
And home it is.
This right here I’ve been hanging out for – since Pax ended last year! The relaxation that is showing on my husbands face is overwhelming when I think of all the things that we’ve been through in the past year. The love and affection for and from my “tribe” is amazing!! We had dinner last night for my birthday and I can hardly recall how content and loved I’ve felt recently.
These words mean so so much to me – so much that I’m not sure I can even accurately express what it truly means inside. Seeing the words and feeling it just caused this giant swelling of love and affection inside for my tribe, this convention,these people that I tear up just thinking about it.
As the title says, I’m sorry, but not that sorry I haven’t written. I’ve been fighting a cold that seems determined to knock me down so I’ve been working, raiding, sleeping, and rinse/repeat for the past week or so.
I’ve also been flat on creativity this past week – all the energy (mental and otherwise) is going into trying to stay well as we’re down quite a few people at work and I want to be sure that I’m there to help out with the workload.
So much ❤ – I’ll have some new stuff this weekend as today I had a flash of inspiration. I’m kinda looking forward to fleshing out this flash. 🙂
Love you all ❤
Taking a small break again tonight from writing anything creative. Feeling a bit flat creatively, so I’m gonna just kinda chill out tonight, take a shower, and have a good night’s rest.
I should have more over the upcoming weekend. I know I’ve been pretty sketchy about the whole page a day thing sometimes (like last night) but honestly, it’s ok. As long as I continue to write and do things it’s all good 🙂 And I am!
I’m just a bit flat and not inspired today. Maybe tomorrow.
*goes back to nibbling on Soy Vanilla ice cream with hot fudge* 😀
So there’s no post about Katalyna right now – the servers are down and I’m not sure what part I want to write about next… I could take you through every zone in Burning Crusade but I didn’t do that with Vanilla WoW soooo.
Today was a good day 🙂 Emotionally, mentally, and physically. I’m not sure what made it good, or why it was good but it was. I didn’t think it would be, but I did well today… it’s been 8 weeks since our lives were irrevocably changed.
Not much to say tonight. I’m tired now, just made some Vegan southwestern style Mac and Cheese with Tempeh bacon for tomorrow night’s dinner – I hope it turns out ok. Thursday we’re having Vegan lasagna. Hope that turns out ok too! Although I dearly love cheese, but I really want to be Vegan. Is that weird? I think it’s weird. I’m weird. 🙂
So, not much else to say. I think I might go curl up with some Netflix 🙂 Have a great night, and Happy Hallmark day everyone 😛
Sorry I missed posting on the weekend – went and did Telethon bingo on Saturday (we won a little bit of money, yay!) and on Sunday we had house cleaning and general running around. 🙂 Here’s more Katalyna though!
Arriving in Darkshire, the cursed town that sat closest to the tower of Karazhan, Katalyna handed over control of her Wintersaber, Xuehu, to the stable master and entered the well lit Inn. She made her way through the throng to where the bartender stood, pouring a drink. “Hello. I’m looking for a man named Truckherder.” She murmured, smiling at the bartender. He looked at her for a moment before gesturing to a man who sat in the corner with his back to two walls, wary eyes scanning the inn. “Thank you.”
Arriving at the Darkshire Inn on Xuehu